Things writen on my hands.
Be specific in our prayers
what I want to be, passionate, have stronger convictions, live strong,
pride is really just being stubborn
the Holy Ghost is drilling a hole in me.
We flip the trigger that refills our heart
write down prayers
how do we know if it is from us or from the lord.
Write wob (don't know what wob stand for)
I have read a book recently. This book was a true story about 47 ronin (samurai without a lord) that lost their lord and did want was needed to get revenge for him. It feed that fire within me, but was only a good start to a flame. I went to a fire side tonight that tossed gas upon it. There goes both good and bad with this. The good is that I get a glimpse of what I want to feel like all the time. I get new resolves and new goals. I notice what I am lacking in and figure out ways to fix them. The bad however is that I don't have enough wood to keep that kind of flame going, yet. So it burns strong and bright, but only for a little while. I must build up to that point where that feeling will never leave me. For the first time in a long time I want to change myself dramatically. I have fallen far back into my laziness and it is a hard pit to climb out of. As I read about the ronin in my book I thought about how much feelings and conviction they had. I have something greater then them and yet I am not even worthy to hold a light to them. There is no virtue, no commandment that I hold to as they did theirs. They would die rather then be dishonored and the things that would dishonor them are many, whether one was dishonored or not was mostly on a personal scale. The samurai that was truly noble could only seem to dishonor himself. Looking at myself, I have little to no honor, but I will get it. I am still young and have sometime left to regain my honor and do great things with it. As a member of the Caucasian race I was never really aloud a culture. I thought it unfitting to say that I am glad to be this or that cause people would turn it into "My Glad to be white, because I'm racist". Well I'm not racist, more so then most people. I am over joyed to be a Whetten and I want to bring honor to that name. People today don't really seem to feel this way, at least not Americans. They rather bring fame to their high school or club rather then to their family name. Well I come from great parents and great grandparents. I have strong Whetten blood that flows in my veins. I understand that now and wish to never do anything to bring shame to that name. No, I do more then wish I work for it.
posted by Judge of the Whetten's at 12:52 AM
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lol, Let's burn this mother down. (mother being mother earth and burn being doing allot of good.)
Judge,
When are you coming back to the big, big island? Call me bro.
-Crazy Davey
i concur with our society being one of individual glory instead of collective good. Just think of hollywood. Even when these stars do good it seems that it is only them trying to up their name. Now that may not be true and I honestly believe that many big wigs are trying their best to better the world but they worked so hard on just helping themselves first. i dunno but i think i'm rambling
i can understand that there are always embers and everyonce and a while we get a burst of gasoline that gets us going but then simmers down pretty quick... time to work hard to be a better person.
bringing honor to your family also important but we arent in the feudal era anymore so we do it in different ways.
ohh i will be sending your agents home in little pieces now.
Wow, finally out of your funk huh? Man you got so depressing for awhile that I thought you were becoming a European liberal. (You know - whine about how bad everything is and how someone should fix it while doing next to nothing yourself). Congrats, you've arrived. Now not only is everything in the loo, including you life, it's all America's fault because it has no culture. I hereby christen you a true European liberal. I'm not an American and can't understand why so many Americans believe anything American is crap or that you can't love America and respect other cultures at the same time? Pull your head out boy. If America is such a racist hell-hole why are so many people from so many countries risking life and limb to get in? If America has no culture what is Jazz and Rock and Blues? Why do people all over the world want to emulate a non-existant culture. You want to be a Samuri? Why so you can have a master tell you what to do? So you can have such a rigid caste system that you don't have to think? You just act like everyone else and do what you're told.
I'm British, and stand proudly for Queen and country but I also love America and all it stands for. You can do both!
Is America perfect? No - she has her problems but she is still filled with freedom and hope.
In America you can be any type of American you choose to be. Some choose good, some choose bad, some choose indifference and some choose to whine and complain because they can't be slavish servants to a rigid caste system that glorifies war and opresses everyone who isn't one of them.
If you want to be a Samuri then be an American-Samuri take the best of both and make something new. Or better yet be a American-Mormon-Samuri (I think that most of the best American ideals are found amoung the your people).
You feel the fire of the spirit? The "burning in your chest"? What are you doing about it? There is a time for thinking and a time for acting. Faith requires acting on your beliefs before your knowledge is certain.
I admire you young mormon men who, armed only with hope, go out to preach Christ the Crucfied. You don't know, yet you still go, hoping to discover the truth through your actions rather than through your intellect. Maybe it works and maybe it doesn't but I do know that the things we learn by intellect are but shades to what we learn through actual doing.
Maybe an American-Mormon-Samuri is an American Mormon missionary. A stranger in a strange land holding to a strict code of honor while trying to save the world. Maybe not (I've met some Mormon Elders who were real jerks).
All I'm trying to say is you've been a missionary, you live by a code of honor, you believe in action, so why are you so whiny? Do, or do not, there is no try (Yoda - a great American).
Arkay the Enemy
P.S. If you haven't been a missionary then no wonder you have don't know yourself or what you believe in. Samuri and soldiers undergo intensive training but nothing compares to being blooded on the battlefield. -- RK
I got to admit, you got me up against the ropes, and yet most of what you said had very little meaning. Let me explain myself before you try to dig any deeper into me.
First, I do not wish to be a samurai. I said I admire the conviction they had. I liked how they lived and died by their morals. Never was it said here that I want to live in feudal Japan under the role of a lord. I also see that the samurai I readed about are most likely the uncommon rather then the common. With every group comes the good and the bad. I am sure there where allot of samurai that did not hold to their code just as there are many people in any religious group that do not hold to their churches dogma.
Second, I do like America. I will be the first to say that I do not fully understand how good I have it here. I have not had the experience to visit many other nations outside my own. I've never been in a communist county; I don't know what's like to live in an African ghetto. So I do not praise the little things that seem common place to me. I do however live in this America, and while I do love living here that does not blind my eyes to the things that are wrong with it. We are a capitalist society and there are problems that come with that. I simply write here about the ones that strike an idea in my head from time to time. I understand America has freedom, which is why I can write what I'm writing. But just because America has freedom and hope, does that mean that I can't write about other things that are bothering me? Must I always praise America in order to justify my living here?
Third, I do not believe America is cultureless. What I said is that I grew up feeling I didn't have one, and I guess I should have explained myself better. What I have learned recently is that I didn't have the typical culture. My culture was based on the blending of different cultures. It's not based solely on whom my parents are, but who they are, where they came from, where I myself grew up, and all this mixed together with all those around me and their families’ traditions and ethicists. From me it was not easy to pick up on this. My culture is not tied to a piece of restate. I do not tie my beliefs and morals to a plot of land. Destroy my home, enslave me and force me from place to place. You can not take the things I hold dear from me. My beliefs and morals are eternal and even if my life is taken it will not take them from me.
I do not have to fight others to prove my point. I am not sure of where I stand in your world of categories. Am I a European liberal, am I a pacifist, am I a humanist, maybe I'm a democratic socialist. I think you are trying to fit me into a category so you can group me in with many others whose beliefs I might not share. Then like many others you dehumanize those people and thus lessen their beliefs. But then again by me saying that I am doing the same thing. So I retract it.
You seem to have such a low opine of me that it hurts. I wish that someday we can meet in person and I can change that view point. I do not write about the things that I do from day to day. I write down the problems that trouble me not the resolves that I had for those problems. You attack my person and really only seem to know one side of it.
I have been given much and I work so that others can know the many blessing I have been given. Where much is given much is required. From now on I will try and share more of my blessing with you.
I don't have a low opinion of you. I don't know you well enough to have an opinion at all.
I am like a fun-house mirror reflecting back at you your own words, distorted and twisted through the flawed glass of my own imperfections.
I hate the rigid mind. I challenge the circumspect life. I'm not really British.
You have a unique mind but you keep trying to fit yourself into categories that don't apply. I am a harsh clown that mocks the desire to be normal. I don't dislike liberals or conservatives and I don't especially like Mormons or Americans. I dislike labels, more so the ones we apply to ourselves in order to fit in. They are but boxes that limit our lives.
You are different. You can change the world. Make a new label and let others try to fit in. If you don't I'll punch you in your metaphorical nose again.
I am Arkay the Enemy
P.S. I'm probably a cute French girl
Who is this "Arkay?" Did he/she go to BYU-H?
I honesty don't know who he is. I think it's a he from his writing style but I easily could be mistaken. I know that he hides behind a name and does not wish to show his face. This maybe cause that way there are no recoils for his words ageist a person, or I may know him and he doesn't want any built-in stereotypes affecting his words. For all I know its cause that is his real name and he's just a computer virus come hay-wire, don know don't care. He's got a way with words and is intelligent if also a little bitter. I'm glad he comments, and all of his comments had substance.
"...A little bitter" eh? Well maybe but maybe not. I caution you with your own warnings to others. The written word does not convey tone. I will give you this since you figured that much out, I am a he.
As for "Arkay the Enemy" he is a figure from a little known mythology. He was born a mortal but was elevated to demi-god status and became the defender of progress and change. He is the enemy of necromancy because it locks soul into an immortal but unchanging state and thus the soul can't progress.
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