Sorrow Ever Lasting
Spilt out the blood. Clamp the teeth down while taking in a deep breath. Exhale, clutching the wound as you raise to your feet. Stare at the bearer of the bad news and wait for it...... Now smile.
The world has something against me. I always thought this, but logic constantly won over the case. The truth could not be hidden any longer however. The wound given was trouble some and will take much care to heal, yet the bearer of the bad news has been unmasked.
continue to show that nothing can bring you down. You got work to do before this ticker tocks it's last. People need you in better condition then what you are.
I must apologize to everyone for these recent months. I have not been the person I should be. I have been preoccupied with trivial things and self interests. I now force forward a new resolve and new oaths. As old goals have been passed and old promises keep I must continue to create new ones. I did not get this far by taking breaths or going easy. If I can lash onto what I did before, just how far can I go?
The turmoil of that moment hits you, that you may not be able to do what you sent out to do, then that stubborn determination that follows. The determination that carries you past that point of no return. Then the weightless feeling of the fear and cares melting away as you shift from unresolved to unwavering.
To stare into the face of fear and be completely terrorfied is nothing special to me. To continue to take those steps forward while feeling afraid is where the interesting part lies. To look into the black abuse of the unknown and trust in God and myself. Two people can do anything if one of them is God. Then I lose thoughts about if I should do this or that and thoughts turn to what I need to do. I can't explain the feeling of not simply over coming your fears but acting through them. Slowly pushing passed those negative thoughts that pile up in my mind.
To lose a battle here, but win another there.
The world has something against me. I always thought this, but logic constantly won over the case. The truth could not be hidden any longer however. The wound given was trouble some and will take much care to heal, yet the bearer of the bad news has been unmasked.
continue to show that nothing can bring you down. You got work to do before this ticker tocks it's last. People need you in better condition then what you are.
I must apologize to everyone for these recent months. I have not been the person I should be. I have been preoccupied with trivial things and self interests. I now force forward a new resolve and new oaths. As old goals have been passed and old promises keep I must continue to create new ones. I did not get this far by taking breaths or going easy. If I can lash onto what I did before, just how far can I go?
The turmoil of that moment hits you, that you may not be able to do what you sent out to do, then that stubborn determination that follows. The determination that carries you past that point of no return. Then the weightless feeling of the fear and cares melting away as you shift from unresolved to unwavering.
To stare into the face of fear and be completely terrorfied is nothing special to me. To continue to take those steps forward while feeling afraid is where the interesting part lies. To look into the black abuse of the unknown and trust in God and myself. Two people can do anything if one of them is God. Then I lose thoughts about if I should do this or that and thoughts turn to what I need to do. I can't explain the feeling of not simply over coming your fears but acting through them. Slowly pushing passed those negative thoughts that pile up in my mind.
To lose a battle here, but win another there.
posted by Judge of the Whetten's at 10:08 AM
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