More Human

If only I could be more human. I think to much. I try to hard at things that do not matter and say I have not the energy when it comes to things that do. I'd like starting today to always keep my word. I have found it as a problem in the past cause I do not wish to disappoint people. So I try to be their for everyone. Then the laziness comes into play. That or I have just spread my self to thin. Do you know how much the lord tells his people to remember. It is in every religion in every scripture. It is not hard to tell people what they need. It is not hard to explain such simple things. Getting them to remember must be where is problem lies. I know that my memory is a note pad that is being written on with a unsharpened pencil. I always forget things and people. I am great with remembering faces and things about peoples lives. Their names however almost always elude me. I once wrote a girls name on my hand cause I wanted to fall in love with her. Yet I for got it was there. When I looked at it again I could not remember how it was pronounced. I then washed my hands thinking about it. So I was never able to look at it again. I then understood way the lord keeps telling me what I know. It's cause I forget that I know it. So I must remember these things that I am writing. For in them I am making a promise that will be held ageist me from now on. I will always keep my word. and never got back on them.